May we never lose our wonder

Updated: Sep 21, 2023

[Warning: post ends with extreme cuteness]

It was finally 3:00pm on January 26th. I got the text from my spy, “She just went back.” And then, “Ben’s going in, so it’s close!” I felt my heart noticeably start pounding faster and harder in anticipation.

I grabbed my earbuds as I was suddenly compelled to listen to Bethel Music’s song, Wonder. “May we never lose our wonder…” And I would’ve let the tears welling up in my eyes turn into a flood were it not for the 3-year-old next to me on the couch (who was telling the animated crayons on TV what needed to be colored – “The pumpkin! The pumpkin’s orange!”). This oldest grandchild of mine (and son of our oldest daughter, aka, the spy) had never seen his Memaw lose control before, so I didn’t think now was a good time to start.

But having our baby girl, Krista, give birth to her first two babies at the same time, was uncharted territory for me. And so much about it was overwhelming right then.

Not the least of which was a wonder for my marvelous God and what He was doing and revealing in that moment: Answer to prayer. Redemption of more difficult times. New life. No, new lives! And above all, a picture of His hand . . . His mercy . . . His grace . . . His love . . . His beauty . . . and His blessings.

So I found the melody and lyrics to Wonder just so perfect to soak in: (listen below)

May we never lose our wonder May we never lose our wonder Wide eyed and mystified May we be just like a child Staring at the beauty of our King

Cause you are beautiful in all your ways Open the eyes of our heart to see you God

You fascinate me, You fascinate us You are beautiful, You are glorious

May we never lose our wonder

And then God reminded me. “I’m this breathtakingly wonder-full all the time.”

All the time.

In those moments that are overwhelmingly difficult, as well as the ones like this that are overwhelmingly amazing. When everything’s going as planned, and when I slump into the mundane and struggle to find anything remotely incredible at all.

He’s always working and moving, redeeming and creating. At all times He’s totally and completely, oh, so wonderful. He can’t be anything else!

I need to remember that. And I need to respond to that truth by worshiping Him.

Because I lose my wonder when I stop seeking. Stop gazing. Stop remembering. Stop striving to know more of who He is. It doesn’t make Him less wonderful – it just makes my sight and soul dulled to His wonder. It just makes me fail to see His glory, so fail to glorify Him.

For our sweet, tiny Clara Jane and Graham Odell, everything is new. Everything. But you know what? My God is in the business of new everyday (Lamentations 3:23)! He delights in new! I just need to look for it and stand in awe and wonder!

“Look among the nations! Observe! Be astonished! Wonder! Because I am doing something in your days– You would not believe if you were told” (Habakkuk 1:5).

“Many, O LORD my God, are the wonders which You have done” (Psalm 40:5).

That was our response to the tiny wonders He had for us in the hospital that day. A week later, it’s still way beyond my comprehension!

God, help me to never lose my wonder of You. Help me to always stop to stare and be fascinated by Your beauty. Help me to never stop striving to see You – seeking to know You – growing to love You more and more. Open my eyes so I never lose the wonder of who You are and what You’re doing around me. At all times. Because You alone are God. And You alone are wonder-full.